Training Log Archive: iansmith

Event: CSU Park-O: Boston Common
 

The 8th CSU Park-O at Boston Common, set by Lori. She set an interesting course that made good use of what challenges exist at the Common. There were many changes of direction; while the orienteering is trivial, it's a decent and very conspicuous sprint location.

Conditions were extremely rainy, with a massive cloudburst just as I arrived. Several orienteers including Ali, Kat, and Alex ran during a torrential downpour. By the time I started, the rain had essentially stopped, though I was completely soaked and the ground was waterlogged. Because of the rain, I didn't warm up at all, and felt a bit out of sorts at the beginning. I ran in tights and my running shoes (which are actually trail runners); I think shorts and X-talons would have improved my performance somewhat.

Apart from some hesitation (15s) at control 8 (at which I had to hop over a bike), I had a fairly clean course and a solid run.

As we waited around for everyone to finish, I decided to run the course again and get somewhat more bang for my buck out of the excursion. I accidentally stopped my watch instead of taking a split at control 17, but I restarted it just before 18. Accounting for this, I was only a few seconds slower on my second run - on which I made fewer errors (8 and 11). A gate SGB pointed out en route to 16 turned out to be locked; maybe he jumped the fence?

After the successful conclusion to the 2010 Park-O season, fifteen of us ordered and ate Taiwanese (Republic of Chinese) food at Alex's office and held a planning meeting for the summer. While I admire the ambition of planning two (or sometimes three) activities in a week, I doubt our hardy group will have the stamina to hold to the schedule. Just thinking about it makes me feel burned out. Nevertheless, we have many quality training sessions to anticipate, and we welcome anyone interested in joining us. During dinner, I secluded myself on a sofa after my chair was usurped twice and inadvertently suggested Brendan's joints don't move. It's good to preface remarks like that with context (e.g. 'do you sleep with contracted joints').

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I choose to write the following because I want to record my instantaneous thoughts. It is effectively public because I want to be understood and solicit feedback and observations from my friends and colleagues. I think that is one of the advantages of blogging - it enables exposition to a wide audience, even if that audience is small, uninterested, or unknown to the author.

On worldviews:
When I was a teenager, I formulated two axioms about how I wanted to live my life:

1. The primary objective I have in life is to understand the nature of life - a sufficient understanding of reality, an understanding of my relationship to other people, an inquiry into the existence of God (as many posit it) and my relationship to it. There are many questions to answer; I see my objective in life as answering those questions (in addition to living, caring for other people, and so on).

2. Everyone is faced with the challenge from (1). The conclusions we arrive at are personal; we do not have a robust way of identifying truth, and so it is a corollary of an underlying assumption about the value and equality of people that we each respect the conclusions others arrive at.

The cornerstone of the Christian faith is the Bible. The Bible is the set of axioms on which Christianity is built like a logical system. There is no other reliable source of knowledge - our own insights are too vague and weak to support Christianity. If the Bible is not true, it is impossible to assert what is true within the Christian worldview; it becomes nothing more than speculation. As I wrote in 2006:

If it [the Bible] is not true, then we Christians are pretty screwed up and lost. Otherwise, how can we have assurance that Jesus is the only way to God? That our salvation is based on faith in what Jesus did and not on how good we are? What can we know?

The Bible offers a theory to describe reality, much like quantum mechanics is a theory to describe the behavior of matter and energy. As with any theory, it is necessary that the theory be consistent with our own observations. When I was finishing high school, I accepted the Christian worldview for the following four reasons:

1. Much of the Bible's commentary on the human condition was consistent with my own experiences
2. There was corroborating evidence with the Bible - for example, the historical accounts from the Old Testament were consistent with archaeological findings in the Middle East, offering a basis of credibility.
3. The Bible itself seemed to offer much wisdom and insight into who we are. The conclusion and mandate that we are to love our neighbor as we love ourselves seemed good to me.
4. The explanation of existence, of God, and of our relationship to it were satisfying.

I always qualified my acceptance of the Bible. For instance, I always concluded that Genesis was metaphorical, because the creationist hypothesis did not seem remotely consistent with what I observed. I also posited that some mandates in the Bible must be qualified as ceremonial or cultural law - for instance, almost everything in Leviticus and Deuteronomy, and many things from the New Testament, particularly with respect to women - as opposed to absolute or moral law. Certainly not every action falls into the domain of a moral choice. But the existence of an absolute morality resonated with me and seemed consistent with my own experience.

Adopting the Christian worldview gave me more questions than answers. I struggled with the notion of Divine Foreknowledge - what is the nature of God's omniscience? Does it have a probabilistic knowledge of the future, i.e. knowing every quantum state? Does it have complete knowledge of all actions and events? Or, in the extreme (Calvinist) view, does it know everything because it designed events to come to pass? I have mused on that question for the past eight years without great insight. I reflected on the problem of pain in the world, and the implication for God's supposed benevolence. I mused on death, the afterlife, the notion of the consequence of God's justice, and the nature of salvation through grace. I reflected on corollaries of moral policy and the legal application of a moral system; I thought about abortion, about the rights of homosexuals, about national policy and the supposition that we are a Christian nation.

I have never held to a particular school of thinking - I accepted that God exists, that we have defied it, that the consequence because of God's character and justice is Death, and that through the grace of Jesus Christ, that consequence might be commuted. On everything else, and even those points, I questioned what I believed.

1 Peter 3:15 says "Always be prepared to give an answer to everyone who asks you to give the reason for the hope that you have." I needed to be able to justify what I believed. That and one other question motivated me: What would I think was true had I grown up somewhere else? After many long years, many discussions with others on what they believed, I found myself unable to convincingly answer the question: why do I believe?

I can no longer see past the inconsistencies I note in the Bible; I can no longer assume that there exists an explanation to the questions I have examined without success. It is not that I think the Christian worldview is false; I simply am unconvinced it is true.

It turns out that this does not significantly change my approach to life. I still adhere to the axioms of my youth - that I must seek out the truth about existence. I don't think it changes how I treat people, because I always sought to corroborate my actions and beliefs with what I observed. Treating other people with compassion, love (agape, e.g.), and benevolence is an excellent way to live. There do exist some behaviors, especially some powerful conclusions, that I would change with my revised thoughts about existence. For those whom I affected in that way, I am sorry for the hurt I caused you. I have always and will continue to enjoy conversing with people about what they believe and what I believe in a free, open exchange of ideas; that is not a corollary of my faith. Proselytizing has ever been abhorrent to me, and a contradiction of my second axiom.

I still have many questions, and I probably will until the day I die. But would be worth living if that were not the case? I welcome feedback and discussion, and I commend the brave among you who have read this far.

C • I think it takes a tremendo... 9

C • congratulations! 4

After a week long training hiatus to rest from ARDF and my injury with the fence at the Bear Hill Park-O, I decided to forgo the CSU interval workout and test out my legs on an easy run around Fresh Pond. At first, my right calf felt tight, but it loosened up as the run went on. My left quad, which was the site of the impact injury at Bear Hill, was untroubled throughout the run. I tried to relax and adhere to an easy pace, but I did catch myself pushing sometimes, despite my 4/4 breathing rate.

The sun was low in the sky as I was running, and Fresh Pond was absolutely beautiful. The vista and the reassuring calm I felt made me want to write poetry and wax eloquent about the human condition.

It should be noted that apparently Vadim ordered long-sleeved shirts for the US ARDF team. Assuming he ordered me one, I will likely modify it to better suit my ventilation needs. The only US jersey I own is signed by Thierry Gueorgiou among others, and I don't plan to run in it. Does anyone have a US men's medium or large jersey they would be willing to loan or sell me (from any year)?

I attended the wedding of my friends Laura and Ben yesterday. I have not been to many weddings, but I always find them to be good opportunities for reflection and reviewing your perspective. The ceremony was wonderfully done, with arrangements of the Adagietto from Mahler 5 for the processional, and Variations on a Theme by Paganini for the closing. This was my first Jewish wedding, and the content and the excellent delivery by the Rabbi were very moving. Tradition is a powerful force, and while it may not be the solution to a particular scenario that you would arrive at a priori, I suppose that it is the solution adopted by some set of our ancestors and predecessors. The combination of the traditional context, the ebullient remarks by the bride and groom about each other, the collected cheer of the gathered family and friends, and the music was very powerful and moving.

The reception had a fantastic jazz combo, a lovely dinner, and fervent dancing. It amuses me that at these formal events, we clad ourselves in lavish attire and prepare our appearance, only then to disrupt that preparation with chaotic activity. I made some of the classic mistakes dancing - trying gestures and motions beyond my coordination. I am an unpracticed dancer, but I nevertheless enjoyed myself. One of Ben's nephews (Max, I think), a ten-year-old, was an excellent dancer who commanded the crowd.

I ran two Catching Features courses after a long hiatus; I am a bit rusty.

It is also worth noting that Boston was covered with smoke from forest fires in Quebec. The skyline was conspicuously obscured, with visibility reduced to perhaps 1 mile. The air also smelled strongly of fire (or carbon, I suppose).

http://www.bostonherald.com/news/regional/view.bg?...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8HE9OQ4FnkQ (the lyrics are a bit ridiculous)

C • I don't know how I feel about that. 3

It hardly seems worthwhile to log this, but it was noteworthy because it was helpful to get away from a computer screen and breathe the fresh air. I stopped by my bank to drop off some checks, then went to the store The Games People Play near Harvard Square to see if they were open. Unfortunately, they were not, and they did not have their hours posted. That information is of course available online.

I slept in until 9 AM before waking; I had a long day yesterday. Nevertheless, of late, I have adopted a fairly regular sleep schedule, motivated in part by the sun shining through my window and skylight.

An interesting subject that emerged in conversation with Audun on the way to the Park-O: the "Starbucks Rule" for Wind Turbine construction. I'm unsurprised that such correlations are apparent, though I'm confident there are sufficiently many other factors correlated with the existence of Starbucks that you could call the rule practically anything. It just so happens that the not-in-my-backyard resistance to the aesthetic of wind turbines is strongly correlated with urban areas of particular socio-economic flavor. I am curious to see the data on the measurement of the NIMBY distribution across the country and how that value was quantified. Nevertheless, it's a fascinating heuristic.

An update from the Park-O - my bruise is improving; the pain is reduced. It turns out that there is also a bruise at the top of my right thigh that I hadn't noticed. I expect to be active again on Monday or Tuesday at the latest.

For reasons not entirely clear, laughter and humor seem to have a significantly positive effect on our lives. I therefore submit to you some images which made me laugh (more later):

Disapproving Kayak is shocked by your behavior:
http://chzhappychairishappy.files.wordpress.com/20...

C • Wind Heuristic 7

C • Osbornedale? 2