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rhr:66
i accomplished some important things today: 1) joined NEOC 2) confirmed some maps on the way from some helpful sources and 3) got the right size, shape, and of course, color SHOES! mm hm, they are RED. obviously i'm not planning on blending in.
also i don't know why but i'm kind of obsessed with heart rates these days. i think i'm embracing thinking about it and feeling my heart rate in a way that is finally healthy, as opposed to the bad ol' panic attack days. but it's still shaky territory for me so i have to be careful. my biggest problem with it, b/c of the panic thing, is not pushing myself hard enough so my heart rate gets up there... i.e. not liking the way a high heart rate feels b/c it reminds me of a panic attack. this is what i have to work on, and think to myself: my heart rate is my friend, getting it up there will help me live a longer, healthier life.