Nice, well, mostly nice trip to Litchfield yesterday. Went because mom's doctor, actually I think she's a nurse practitioner, was making a house call to see how mom was doing. When's the last time a doctor made a house call? 50 years ago?
So that was worth being there for, had a nice chat with the nurse. And so far so good with mom. She's just skin and bones, but still eating well and seems quite happy.
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On the way down I spent some time ruminating on life, giving some thought to what I should be doing with my remaining years. I am lazy by nature, so there is a lot of appeal to not having responsibilities. But there also is appeal to doing something useful or productive with my time, not just letting it waste away.
Not that I came up with any answers. I'm certainly not eager to dive back into something as intense as the tax business. But there needs to be something to give a little more purpose to the passing days and months.
At some point it did occur to me that I should at least give myself some credit for the last 5 years of dealing with mom. Unexpected, certainly unplanned, certainly something I was totally unprepared for. Often I am very hard on myself, so sometimes it is good to just allow oneself some satisfaction for something done reasonably well. I beat myself up enough as it is.
Though, of course, snapping back to reality, this 5-year journey still has a ways to run, and who knows how it will play out. Definitely keeping my fingers crossed.
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And then, on the way home, a reminder for those times when you don't feel happy about things, when the day hasn't gone so well, that there is probably someone out there having a worse day. Past the airport, got onto 91 north and boom, traffic stopped dead. The phone showed bad traffic for a mile. Called up Gail, said I'd be later than planned for dinner, and then waited. And waited. And waited.
It took about an hour and a quarter to move that mile. At some point I could see enough ahead to realize that there was a semi that did not seem to be lined up the right way --
And closer, yes, for sure, the driver was definitely not having a good day. How he ended up there I have no idea.
Finally past it, a wide open 91, 3 lanes, not much traffic. It took a moment to realize that this was the most dangerous time -- everyone was late, everyone was pissed, and everyone was driving like a bat out of hell. And I was feeling quite fortunate, no place I had to be at a certain time, no schedule screwed up, just mozy on home where a fine dinner was waiting for me whenever I happened to get there. :-)