Note
I went against medical, coaching and personal advice in running Friday's race. I felt like I had to run and put my neck on the line, when really I was not physically or mentally in a good enough place to perform. My performance was a result of five days of a nasty stomach virus and no running, two days of cramming in some food and feeling very unsettled, and one day of trying to bring myself back mentally - no one should be made to feel that they have to race under these circumstances. Nevertheless, if I hadn't raced, I would always wonder what result I might have achieved.
Things are always controversial, that's life, but when you've done everything you possibly could have done and got yourself to a place no one thought possible in January, and it's still deemed not good enough, what do you do?
A few days are needed to reflect. 2017 is not the one... so far.