Today, I felt old. Aside from various mirror related reasons, there were so many elements of this race that made me feel that my best running days are behind me, wasted by sheer laziness between the ages of 16-25 and ineffective training from 25-28.
My goal was 1:15. I thought that with my low 56:00 10 miler, 1:15 would not necessarily be an unreasonable goal. But I feel like things started to go south a few days ago when I had a root canal done and my dentist gave me some medication which really kind of did a number on my digestion. I've been finding that everything just blasts straight through me and my energy levels are not exactly through the roof. I would have appreciated the dentist mentioning that.
The field was crazy elite, with about 5 guys who PB in the 63s, but plenty of sub-elite guys that I figured would be right around my speed. The first 4k was exceedingly fast, which I swore I wouldn't do, but I'm a racer, I can't help it. There was a group of four of us, and they simply ran away from me. I wondered if I could have worked a little bit harder and hung on, but I really felt like the race was long and I have a perpetual fear of blowing up. Slowly but surely they ran away from me, and I had the ever-present nagging of the cyclists for the lead woman right on my tail.
I was feeling pretty demoralized from about 6-12k, generally running by myself, and certainly not re-experiencing the advancing feeling I had in the 10 miler. I tried to consume sport drink at each of the aid stations to see if that boosted my energy at all, and it maybe did, but for no more than 2-3 minutes.
Eventually with about 2k to go the women's lead cyclists passed me, which I assumed meant she was about to blaze by me, as I was not feeling driven to the line, but it was actually another guy that past me first. I think that was probably a blessing in disguise. I didn't really want to push hard to try and beat the women's winner to the line, because nobody likes THAT guy, so him passing me made me sigh a little and go for hanging on. I didn't catch back up to him, but I stuck with him and finished about 4 seconds behind him, and a solid 20 second buffer before the female winner came in. I'm just glad not to be in the picture.
I'm sure people will think that 1:16:32 is a pretty good time, but I had a goal, I didn't hit it, and I don't think I ran very well. The pavement was not kind on my legs (though no calfmaggedon), and I really didn't have the drive I thought I felt in the 10 miler. I guess its been a long 2 months with Europe and Nationals and driving, and I didn't really prepare specifically at all for this.
Still, I'm bummed. And I feel old.
Unfortunately there's no time to winge.
Now its time to start running uphill. A lot.