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weight:84.4kg
12.8% body fat.
I am in a particularly buoyant mood after yesterday's good run - improving at something you enjoy is great, very rewarding. Even failing is good if you look at it in the right way, set-backs, bad runs etc. It's all part of the journey, a roller-coaster you ride on to add life balance and variety. An individual pursuit that compliments the most important things in life and whilst, unlike those more important things, it never has the power to make one truly happy in the long-term it certainly has the power, similarly to those more important things, to make one unhappy if for whatever reason it became impossible to ride full stop.
Regardless of perceiving it in the right way and perhaps, exactly because it will never make one truly happy I do find myself in a dilemma and probably in a similar way as for pro athletes where the sport is the or equal most important thing in life, although not so extreme as that.
I often find that the good feeling having improved is mixed up with a frustration of wanting to improve more and it makes me a little tired. I think it is the same for people who are the best in the world at something. One doesn't transcend into a state of permanent euphoria when one becomes world champion for example. I've reached the top becomes I must stay at the top or I must get to the top again. I've become the greatest ever becomes I must make it as difficult as possible for anyone else to be the greatest ever in the future etc etc.
I do count myself lucky that I am in a position to be able to have balance. It must be an intense gamble with one's happiness to have almost everything riding on one particular pursuit as it is for the top elites. No wonder you get so many mental f-ups at the top level e.g. Ronnie O Sullivan or Tiger Woods.
Anyway get to the point eh? There is nothing wrong with expecting more from oneself, with pushing the limits, aiming high and being disappointed with failures etc but be sure to balance it out with a good pat on the back wherever it is deserved. When it's obvious that one has improved, significantly better than before then focus on the feeling of finding the controls well, the feeling of bouncing through the terrain all springy like. Take a break, smell the roses and above all always be so super thankful that you can actually ride, regardless of the result.