Orienteering race 1:45:00 [5] **** 10.0 km (10:30 / km) +400m 8:45 / km
shoes: VJ supra (yellow)
EOC Long distance A-final
Tough, tough race and unfortunately, I ended up having to give up. Big disappointment, feel like a loser, but it is what it is and I can't change it now.
Lets start in the beginning...
I was an appropriate amount of nervous before the start. I always get nervous before any big race and I have learned that this is normal and I pretty much know how to deal with it. It's not that much fun, but I'm getting used to it. I was mentally prepared for an adventure and I knew that at some point it would get tough.
I started really well in the race, actually. The first 4 controls were great and I was moving fairly quickly. I already caught the girl who started 3 minutes ahead of me at the 4th control. Too bad I kept seeing her again and again after that ;-).
The 5th control was my 1st major goof up. I went directly through some dark green, because the green on the maps were basically for nothing, everything was run-able, sometimes the green was actually quite fast. This time it was ok, but it was green enough that I didn't realize that I hadn't gotten all the way to the top of the hill and just as far as a side hill on the way up. So, I made a parallel error and ran down the wrong nose. Realized it fairly quickly, but was pretty far off my line and correcting took a few minutes.
The next control was good and after that there was a long leg. I chose a good route choice and was able to execute the beginning very well. Saw the girl (URK) who started ahead of me again here. This time, I was in a hurry to get ahead of her again and away. This caused me to make a mistake along my route going to far to the left and mixing up two yellow patches. Ugg. Another 2-3 minutes gone. Drank two cups of water here and ate my Gu. Staring to feel tired now, but not yet bad.
On my way to the butterfly, I caught the Ukrainian girl again and we had different loops, so I never saw her after that. Drank my sports drink at the center control, but felt like I was really loosing it physically. Strange, because I had enough liquids and carbs to not feel awful at this point in the race, but my body basically just shut down. Along with my body was my head. I was struggling in the butterfly, but not really making any mistakes, just very slow since I was having a hard time reading the map due to fatigue. On my way out of the butterfly, I felt relieved and knew there wasn't that much more left. Still struggling, but feeling a little bit better.
This is when I did a huge parallel error. On my way to number 19, I ran off my compass and cross a stream at the wrong branch. Went up the hill on the other side into a yellow (which was also the same on the correct hill), but realized that the yellow was way too big. Saw what I did and corrected back down. But, I corrected back at an angle and went down across a small gully instead of a big stream and thought I was back on track. So, now I am climbing a hill and I could tell that things were not adding up, and my compass was pointing the wrong direction, but I just couldn't make sense of it, since I thought I had corrected from the initial mistake. I was really bonking now and just basically walking. When I got out to this big farm fields, I realized that I was up on the next ridge where the finish is and I felt totally gutted. I didn't realize that I was still on the map, I just figured I went totally wrong and off the map... I was so horrified and drained by the mistake that I didn't even consider going back down the 100 meters of climb I did too much to my control and to keep going. My race was over.
In retrospect, I wish I would have gone back down, but at that moment, I was so gutted, so tired, so hot, and absolutely confused and drained that giving up was the only option in my head. What I am most confused about is why I was so drained and unable to have enough energy, even though I was drinking and eating along the way. Maybe I started too fast? Maybe I haven't done enough really long tough races or trainings? But I've run two long distance races already this year and I did fine physically in both...Maybe the whole week was just a little too much for me. The added stress of these races being the first "important ones of the year", the heat, the lack of good sleep (and not enough sometimes either), feeling pressure by being selected 5th for WOC, or just the fact that it's harder to do well in big events and sometimes shit happens... well that is what I am writing this off as = shit happens. I will do better next time!