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Epilogue
Three months later and Ian was at Sheffield half marathon. He wasn’t on the start line, but he was at Devonshire Green, about two-thirds of the way around the route. He was applauding the front runners through and waiting for Kate, who he was expecting to pass by in a few minutes.
Ian had not run a step for three months, not since that mysterious night when he had left Phil and wound up back home, his legs stiff and his clothes muddied. It wasn’t that he couldn’t run for those three months. He knew that he could have done, had he felt the urge. There was nothing stopping him any longer, no physical or mental impediment to speak of. He simply hadn’t wanted to run. To begin with, things just kept cropping up. First there was the hangover, the like of which Ian had never experienced before. It wiped him out for the entire weekend and left him feeling drained and empty, like a car with a flat battery. Then he had a busy week at work, meeting clients after hours and organising important presentations. Next he had gone away on a course for a few days and forgot to take his running shoes. But after that, he stopped needing to look for excuses. He just didn’t go running; it was as simple as that. It had been quite exhilarating at first. Every evening Kate would arrive home late, hot and sweaty after another run to find Ian in the kitchen preparing a nutritious tea, rich in carbs, perfect for her training regime. At weekends he did some of the things he had always wanted to do but never had the time or energy; fix up the garden fence, redecorate the attic, sit and have a go at the crossword. For a while he had been quite content.
But today, as he watched runner after runner pass him by, each of them pushing themselves as hard as they could; some grimacing, some grinning; some chasing, some being chased; some pushing on, some capitulating, Ian experienced a familiar itch. A familiar, nagging sensation that he knew from long experience could not be scratched.
‘Go on Kate!’ Ian had been miles away. Fortunately he was not the only member of her fan club out on the route and others were being more attentive. He caught her eye and thrust a bottle into her hand as she skipped past. She was ahead of schedule and looking good. Watching his wife stride out, feet springing off the tarmac, squeezing every little bit of power out of her body, Ian felt a sense of visceral excitement, as though he himself was a part of the race. She had been nervous before the start and Ian had shared her nerves. Now she was hurting and Ian shared her pain. In a few minutes she would be filled with release and elation and Ian would share that too. These were the sensations that he had been missing.
On Monday morning at 7am, Ian promised himself, I will run again.
The End.