Cycling 35:00 [1]
shoes: 2014 Saucony cohesions
I have been feeling particularly exhausted since the weekend. Yesterday I got up for one hour at 8, then went back to bed at 9, finally waking up at 11. Today I switched off my alarm for 7, then slept until 9.30. I almost stayed at home as I don't have much practical work to do in the lab, but figured that a nice easy bike ride in would probably make me feel better. It did, a bit. It's warm now!
I am trying to figure out why I have felt this bad for a very long time now. Very tired, lacking in motivation, rapidly gaining weight.
Contenders are:
- contraceptive pill - stopped taking around 3 months ago, brief bump in energy and mood about three weeks later, back down to "normal" again now.
- depression - funding is very stressful here right now. I have a lovely bunch of work mates but we are all worried most of the time. Our boss is not helping. I know my job is secure, but a job isn't much good if you can't afford to buy anything to do experiments with. I am applying for jobs back in Europe finally, but it's a few months until peak application season. It's not like funding is much better there. I am still not a top candidate on paper.
- heat - I always struggle, but I'm pretty sure I felt like this all winter too.
- chronic fatigue - old friend, not missed.
- just getting old :)
- lyme disease? Probably not.
I actually can't remember when I was last feeling good, energetic, inspired and refreshed by sleep. I can hardly believe I once ran a 3.15 marathon. I'm quite sure much of this is in my head, rather than physical.
Very very open to ideas/thoughts/kicks up the backside. Particularly re. diet, as I need to sort out the weight thing even if the rest is harder to sort out.