Training Log Archive: Becks

It's been a good week. The two days Euan has gone to daycare have allowed for some work catch up and actual relaxation and my mental state in general is much better. I've enjoyed every little run I've done this week. But weirdly the physiological signs of anxiety are back - the stuff I saw the speech therapist for in my first year in Boston. Trying to remember the exercises she gave me (it mostly derives from neck tension) but struggling - probably need to get a telehealth appointment to remind myself. This is pretty frustrating because I'm not feeling the other parts of anxiety - I'm actually sleeping well, I can focus at the work I have...but it's clearly still there.

And we very much lucked out because it turns out Euan is the loveliest baby. I guess all you parents remember that feeling of not thinking you can possibly love them any more, and then somehow loving them more the next day. It's amazing stuff.